Zoё's PuBliC nAtiOn

I think the workaholic n perfectionist Capricorn Zoe is back, HAHA

I have been slack for a long long time!!!!

Lalala~ Paapaa~~~

Good day everybody!!!

Love this pic a lot, dunno why =]

1) I need to buy a toaster, so I can make a proper breakfast for myself.... Maybe a waffle maker??? Or just a pan for pancake???

2)Singapore is too hot for cycling, sad!!! Or I will cycle school everyday!!!!! I wanna a cute blue bicycle!!! =(

See how lovely this lady is, with a bicycle!!! =p

3)Still wanna change to MAC =S

It may sounds a bit ridiculous, n maybe hilarious, but seriously, I wanna save the world.

The more I saw, the more I hear, the more I dig into the environmental issues, the more terrified I am. N I realized this is something I wanna do through my whole life, I wanna save this world!

It impossible to say what big things I can do now, but with more knowledge, more understanding of things, I am sure I will make a little change and make a little impact on this planet.

Let's save the world, right now.

I wanna be loved, right now, seriously

I had a really pleasant night, sushi, coffee, reading, good conversation, lovely friend.

I think I am happy, and I definitely can be happier, just stay focused and put 100% attention to what I am doing, taste the life and enjoy.

Love coffee, love books, love my life.

BUT, I think I need to sleep early n eat less..... A bit disordered recently, which is not good..... =S

People always say when one door closed the other door open, I don't know how true is that, but as my pervious relationship just ended with a full stop, I opened a new chapter in my career life. I am taking the Phd, n I am going to finish it in three year, that is the maximum time I give to myself.

I always say I don't know what I want, in fact, more accurately, it should be I don't know is the thing I want, is what I want.

A bit messy? Yea, just like me.

I think I always know what I want, I just don't know how to get there, and I don't know whether I am able to get there. And I never lost, I am always finding the way to bridge me there. Sometimes, I just wanna keep my dream to myself.

Hope I am on the right track now, wish me luck everybody!

I miss U.S.

I know you sometimes read my blog, n I hope you are still reading it some time =)

It has been a week, I still feel a bit sad here n there, occasionally, but I think it's more abt missing your accompany rather than something else.

I think I just don't have the courage to say let's break it off, with no reasons. I was not tat happy too, I think we were having a bad cycle that I felt insecure, so I want to get more from you, then you felt been pushed, so you stepped back, then it made me feel more insecure, blablabla

Yea, maybe it's bad timing, n maybe we just dun mix

I just wanna let you know, you treat me very very nice when we were together, and every time I think back, I really thank you for driving me home everyday, I thank you for singing songs to me when I am sad, I thank you for playing Vii with me, I thank you for responding to all my silly n lame jokes, I thank you for introducing me to your friends n Arman, I thank you for bringing me to movies n floorball, I thank you for buying me the wallet in my favorite color, I thank you for you spending time and energy to find me the hat I want, I thank you for your shoulders that I could lean on every time when I am sleepy, I thank you for saying goodbye to me at airport in so many languages, n I thank you for all your hugs and kisses,too, they are really sweet, like marshmallow, =p

And more importantly, I thank you for your determination on ending this, I think this would be the best for both of us.

I think I am not ready for a relationship too, I need more time to spend with myself working on the life I want to have.

Zoe is still a kid, and a beautiful mess just past by her life =D I am moving on, start from September!

I am still fabulous, in every way! WAKAKAKAKA!

I am not ok, I don't know how much more I can take.

For the first time, I can feel the pressure from my parents and the family. Life is not simple, unless you can figure all things out.

I acted as I am perfect normal, I laugh, I shop, I hang out with my friends. But I am not ok, I dunno how to get myself back, I am so stressed and unhappy.

I miss you, badly

Though I'm in US, still have no feeling about the trip. What am I thinking????

Glad we talked, I will be glad-er if I can digest all the words. I am simple, but seems still not as simple as I thought I suppose to be.

Time will tell everything. Good night my dear, have a nice trip =) With me, HAHAHAHAHA!