I think the workaholic n perfectionist Capricorn Zoe is back, HAHA

I have been slack for a long long time!!!!

Lalala~ Paapaa~~~

Good day everybody!!!

Love this pic a lot, dunno why =]

1) I need to buy a toaster, so I can make a proper breakfast for myself.... Maybe a waffle maker??? Or just a pan for pancake???

2)Singapore is too hot for cycling, sad!!! Or I will cycle school everyday!!!!! I wanna a cute blue bicycle!!! =(

See how lovely this lady is, with a bicycle!!! =p

3)Still wanna change to MAC =S

It may sounds a bit ridiculous, n maybe hilarious, but seriously, I wanna save the world.

The more I saw, the more I hear, the more I dig into the environmental issues, the more terrified I am. N I realized this is something I wanna do through my whole life, I wanna save this world!

It impossible to say what big things I can do now, but with more knowledge, more understanding of things, I am sure I will make a little change and make a little impact on this planet.

Let's save the world, right now.

I wanna be loved, right now, seriously

I had a really pleasant night, sushi, coffee, reading, good conversation, lovely friend.

I think I am happy, and I definitely can be happier, just stay focused and put 100% attention to what I am doing, taste the life and enjoy.

Love coffee, love books, love my life.

BUT, I think I need to sleep early n eat less..... A bit disordered recently, which is not good..... =S

People always say when one door closed the other door open, I don't know how true is that, but as my pervious relationship just ended with a full stop, I opened a new chapter in my career life. I am taking the Phd, n I am going to finish it in three year, that is the maximum time I give to myself.

I always say I don't know what I want, in fact, more accurately, it should be I don't know is the thing I want, is what I want.

A bit messy? Yea, just like me.

I think I always know what I want, I just don't know how to get there, and I don't know whether I am able to get there. And I never lost, I am always finding the way to bridge me there. Sometimes, I just wanna keep my dream to myself.

Hope I am on the right track now, wish me luck everybody!

I miss U.S.

I know you sometimes read my blog, n I hope you are still reading it some time =)

It has been a week, I still feel a bit sad here n there, occasionally, but I think it's more abt missing your accompany rather than something else.

I think I just don't have the courage to say let's break it off, with no reasons. I was not tat happy too, I think we were having a bad cycle that I felt insecure, so I want to get more from you, then you felt been pushed, so you stepped back, then it made me feel more insecure, blablabla

Yea, maybe it's bad timing, n maybe we just dun mix

I just wanna let you know, you treat me very very nice when we were together, and every time I think back, I really thank you for driving me home everyday, I thank you for singing songs to me when I am sad, I thank you for playing Vii with me, I thank you for responding to all my silly n lame jokes, I thank you for introducing me to your friends n Arman, I thank you for bringing me to movies n floorball, I thank you for buying me the wallet in my favorite color, I thank you for you spending time and energy to find me the hat I want, I thank you for your shoulders that I could lean on every time when I am sleepy, I thank you for saying goodbye to me at airport in so many languages, n I thank you for all your hugs and kisses,too, they are really sweet, like marshmallow, =p

And more importantly, I thank you for your determination on ending this, I think this would be the best for both of us.

I think I am not ready for a relationship too, I need more time to spend with myself working on the life I want to have.

Zoe is still a kid, and a beautiful mess just past by her life =D I am moving on, start from September!

I am still fabulous, in every way! WAKAKAKAKA!

I am not ok, I don't know how much more I can take.

For the first time, I can feel the pressure from my parents and the family. Life is not simple, unless you can figure all things out.

I acted as I am perfect normal, I laugh, I shop, I hang out with my friends. But I am not ok, I dunno how to get myself back, I am so stressed and unhappy.

I miss you, badly

Though I'm in US, still have no feeling about the trip. What am I thinking????

Glad we talked, I will be glad-er if I can digest all the words. I am simple, but seems still not as simple as I thought I suppose to be.

Time will tell everything. Good night my dear, have a nice trip =) With me, HAHAHAHAHA!

If I am her, of coz I will be sad, it is a five-year-long relationship, how many five-yr a gal can give?

Who can make me happy?

Of coz is Zoe!!!

Who can make you happy?

Of coz is Zoe!!!

So wut should Zoe do?

Be happy!!!!!

I choose to stay simple and happy, and I choose to stay with you.

I feel there is a ghost  hiding my in head, somewhere that I probably would  never get him.

I think I need a new attitude, a fresh start and a sweet escape, from here, from now

It takes time, yep

Then why I am still feel bothered???

Silly Z >.<

Let's stay simple and happy =) Lovely days ahead!

Who knows, life is just full of surprises

Three days ago, I packed my whole life in Singapore into four boxes in one hour. So proud of myself.

Packing is easy, either you throw it into your box and bring it to your new home, or, you throw it out of your room and say byebye forever.

But I couldn't help to wonder, how about unpacking them? What if I find I threw sth away which should not be threw? Will my favorite cup been damaged because I didn't wrap it well? How about all those wires, did I put all of them into one box??? Where did I put my bank accountbook???

Lesson is learned, life is complicated when you pull all the things out and try to make them all in order again.

So.......

So I will not look back, if anything is needed, I get myself a brandy new one.

Yeah! Kid is going to sleep, how about you???

Very good night, to all =)

Thanks dude, you know I am talking abt you ya~ Hahahaha, thanks for giving me such a lovely nite!

It was such a peaceful deep sleep I missed for a long time, maybe because of the alcohol, maybe because of all the nice songs, maybe because days' of sleepless, maybe, because, I am released

I dunno where am I now, and I don't want to think about it anymore. I just believe my god loves me a lot, and he will give me what I should have in one day. So I just do what I should do to love my life.

Let's keep everything simple, have fun and stay happy 

A very lovely song, described my previous very lovely contradicting mood, hahahahahaha
Oh Yeah!!! I am the girl in the song!!!!!! Jason Mraz's song oh!!!!! Lalalalala

I have to say this seriously, my breast is becoming BIG!!! Ah huh....... Amazing! Hahahahaha, and I like it~

But I couldn't help wondering, why???? Am I in my second pubertal stage??? Maybe yes, maybe thats why I have those hideous pimples =(

I can't stop thinking, can I just have my breast growing without pimples???? Or maybe simply, we just cannot have it all, god happened to design us in that way. If you wanner be slimmer, you have to foresee your breast maybe shrink, if a gal is very pretty, she might be a dumb, if a guy is a genus, he may be kook, if someone have a perfect character, most probably, he's hard to commit to his relationship.

We cannot have it all, so, can I abandon the old me but have you?

Hahahahaha, wut am I talking abt..... Early morning, I need coffee =)

Have a nice day everyone!!!!

I think last time I check my space is in 2008, and when I typed in the title, i suddenly realized that, wow, it's 2009! And it's April! Wah...... People always say time flies, but I hardly agree, I think fly is too slow for the time.